So I’ve been feeling a bit “stuck” lately, and while there’s a part of my resistant brain that keeps telling me, “yoga never helped you succeed in blasting through blocks,” there’s another voice that tells me, “well, I DID feel better and seem to handle life’s difficulties better when I practiced regularly, didn’t I?”
So Wednesday I checked in with my “action partner” and shared my thoughts, suggesting that I might start trying a 40 day “sadhana” – although not the 4am sadhana as commonly understood in Kundalini circles. A sadhana is really just a committed personal practice.
So I could honestly manage that day was 11 minutes of Sat Kriya and 11 minutes of the opening part of “Subagh Kriya” – the “Har” meditation (which is a meditation by itself when practiced for this length.)
Day 2 fared a bit better; I was really feeling “stuck” throughout my whole body and being, so I did “Removing Body Blocks” from Harijot Kaur’s “Self-Knowledge” manual, then the “Rejuvenating Meditation to Make You Sattvic (Pure)” from Class 1 of the Master’s Touch manual. I’ve wanted to make my way through ALL the meditations in Master’s Touch since I did the teacher’s training, but have never gotten through all of them yet. Then I repeated the 11 minute “har” meditation.
The funny thing about the prosperity meditations is that you start seeing all the examples of prosperity in your life, no matter how insignificant. So the day before, I’d bought some lightbulbs at Target, and was appalled at how expensive they turned out to be. I got home, and one of the four bulbs didn’t even work. So I brought it back to Target, and they gave me a whole new set of 4 bulbs in exchange for the one dead bulb! “We have to write it off as damaged anyway,” I was told. I left a happy customer.
On Friday, I was starting to feel a bit run down. I’d helped my friend Stephen down in San Pedro, but was a bit burnt out from the drive there and back. When I got home, I looked through “Yoga for Prosperity” by Siri Kirpal Kaur, and decided to do “Brain Doctor Kriya” – “Kundalini Yoga & Meditation for Intuition and Answered Prayers.” It’s a pretty vigorous set, which I found a bit challenging after such a long period of intermittent practice, but I was feeling better by the end of it. Then I did “Meditation to Clear Your Communication” from Master’s Touch, and another 11 minute “Har” kriya. A little while later, I realized the tingle in my sinuses wasn’t from allergies, and by the time I went to sleep, I realized I was fighting off a cold.
The next day was “a wash” – I felt crummy and made some healthy soup for myself, but decided to skip the yoga, even if it meant my day count had to start with “one” again.
So today, Sunday, I did the “cold buster” (as Sada Sat Singh called it) – you fill the bathtub with water as hot as you can stand, and do Sat Kriya in the tub, ideally with the water level above your navel. Afterwards you’ll be sweating and tired, so you rest and let the toxins get sweated out of your body. It’s best to do this late at night before you go to bed, but I did it mid-afternoon, after cleaning the tub and bathroom thoroughly, and before heading off to a 12 step meditation meeting. I rested a bit, but then took a cold shower to cool my body down and get my energy going. A bit stressful, but what I needed to show up for the meeting. The meeting allows 20 minutes for meditation; most people sit in silence and do more of a Buddhist-style sitting practice, but I like to sit in the back of the room, where most people won’t see my freaky mudras or be distracted by them. I discovered that the next meditation in the “Yoga for Prosperity” book fit perfectly into that 20 minute niche, and so I did “Meditation to Become Intuitive.” Actually, since it was a new meditation, I was rather distracted by trying to track the time for each segment; just as my mind was quieting down, I’d need to change to a new section. Afterwards, my intuition told me quite clearly; “you need to leave immediately and go home and make some dinner for yourself.” Ah well, we’ll see what tomorrow brings!